The unimaginable is a life without her smile in it. The heartbreaking is a life without her lips on mine. Life is unworthy without her in my arms.
I don’t really know what I did to deserve her. But, I do know, that I love her with all I have. And the only truth is that, I am the most luckiest man in the whole world to have a woman as beautiful as her in my life. A woman so beautiful that every other just pales in comparison to everything about her. She is my angel, my baby love, my everything, my all. And she is my forever.
Please, I beg you..
Being a girlfriend is not just about being beautiful and attractive for your guy. It’s not just about letting him chase you, letting him do sweet things every time you’re mad at him and not just receiving flowers and gifts during your anniversaries. It’s not about doing those girly things just to get his attention and not just about feeling mighty every time he did everything you want. It’s also being an emotional partner wherein you support him in every opportunity that he takes, you appreciate everything that he does for you and you thank him for doing it, you remind him on the things he must do and what he must not. Just because you know that you can always keep him on his feet, doesn’t mean you can manipulate him. You understand him not just as a partner but as individual too. you help him in every way showing him, that in a relationship, there’s no “I” or “you”, there’s only “we” and “us”. You know also that a man has their ego, and even when it become a little irritating sometimes, you still understand that it’s a part of his nature. A girlfriend is not just a term, it also has responsibilities that every girl must know. You’re a friend, a sister, a second mom, a teacher, and a best friend.
Sometimes I think to myself, that when it comes to love there are untold things that happen when you love someone and they love you. That even when I know that I can seek to find something more normal, I go for the difficult cos I think it’s a love that will last forever. A love that transcends the physical or the mental. It’s funny when you think something is right and the next moment you’re proved wrong. Life is about living for something meaningful. There are people out there that think you have only one life in which to do everything and you just do things you want to. I won’t say their choice is wrong but I personally think that life should be more about living for something that’s worth it. Taking risks, having belief, hope, persevering till the end and never letting go. Sometimes you just have to give something a chance before you even give up on it. Sometimes you think you know what you need but the thing you want isn’t the thing you really need but the one thing you give up on. And someday later you’ll wish that if you had just given it a chance, you wouldn’t have made a choice that took you to the place you’re now.
I’m not sure if I will ever write again. Not sure if I will. But sure that you can know that I’m always here. I will come at times and share my love for what I did with my heart on here and the people and the loving strangers who supported me. But for now, I’ll be gone for a bit. And one last thing. Take this for a man who knows what he’s talking about. Never ever give up on the one who truly really loves you. There might be a million trillion gazillion freakin’ reasons you shouldn’t be together. But love is what matters in the end. You can even have everything in life, every comfort, everything under the sun. But if there’s no love, its all for nothing. If you have love, everything will come to you in time. Happiness, joy, safety and a life where you’re content and satisfied. Just trust me on this. You’ll know someday and you’ll say that, that guy was right whoever he is.
She’s my life, my heart and soul. My everything. Without her in my life. I’m nothing.
I write of a woman who I love with all I have.
A woman who is as fair as the winter snow.
Eyes as warm as the summer morning sunshine.
Lips red like the shade of a setting sun.
Hair that the four winds caress and kiss.
And a smile that make even mother nature jealous.
And the sun, the moon, the earth and the stars are but,
poets to sing how humbling her beauty is to them.
And I am the keeper of her heart. The owner of her love.
The servant to her footsteps. The guide to her hands.
She loves me. And I love her more for it.
The woman who is my life, my heart, my soul, my all.
The sunlight lit her hair and I stared silent, wondering how an angel is walking around with absolutely no idea of the wings that are hiding underneath her beautiful white skin. She is my angel.
For you,
for you alone,
only you,
I will wait.
Forever,
if I have to.
Come in and close the door. Leave your clothes on the floor cos you don’t need it where you are going. I will take you to a place love pours down on you like rain, slides down every inch of your skin, caressing you with its sweet warmth like the summer rain in the sun. Baby don’t be scared. Hold on to me, wrap your arms around me and hold on tight. I will make love to you, over and over again. Catch your breath cos I am gonna take you to heavens unseen, make you feel so loved it will drive you crazy, thinking if there was such a thing in existence. Death means nothing, so inconsequential compared to what we will have. Baby, I will show you a world that never existed, a world in which love is everything, where you are queen, and I will be your guardian angel. Fallen, the one who gave up everything to love you.
I sit here in the dark, sitting here wide awake. Thinking about the moment when I last saw you. Missing you even though it wasn’t that long ago. I know that you are not that far away. Cos when I close my eyes, I still see you right here next to me. Wearing nothing but that beautiful smile of yours. That smile that I fell so in love with. And poking your tongue at me playfully when you feel all flustered or shy. I wish I could leave right away, walking, running to you. I’m counting the clocks, counting the hours, till I get to you. Someday, see you face to face. See your beautiful face, your beautiful smile, for real. I think about our conversations, seeing you talk and do things, seeing you smile and laugh. You should know that I’ve never wanted anything more in my life ever nor will I ever. All I want to do sometimes is to hide. But I can’t stop myself from staring at those eyes, those lips, that smile. Wishing those hands were in mine. And I can’t even stop caring for you. But sometimes I fear losing you. It makes me go paralyzed. Feels like dying for a second for the instant of the thought of it. And as I look into your eyes, I cry to you that I love you. And here I am standing in the dark waiting for you. I won’t move from this love, move from your heart. I will make it mine no matter what. Don’t leave me standing in the dark. Cos you know I will still be standing her waiting to hold you in my arms forever. Love you with every bit of me. Please, don’t leave me standing in the dark.
Moments, fleeting, momentary, but we remember them all. The thoughts of us making love. For us, its more than just the physical. For us, its more than an act of gaining pleasure. Sometimes it includes both as well. But, our love means more at that moment for us than anything else. Making love to you, my angel, is a dream that I want to make real someday. Cos it just will be that its named, making love. Making love to you and you alone. My first, my last, my forever. My baby angel.
Every single day, I fall in love with her again and again. Every single day, I find more and more things I love about her. Every single day, I find that there is no life for me without her. And every single day, I will love her. Every single day. Forever.
For a moment there I thought I lost you. For a moment there I thought I lost your smile. For a moment there I thought I died. But, I held on. Cos I know someday. My heart will be racing as you put your hands in mine. Feel them shaking, as I look into your eyes, And I will tell you that it’s gonna be alright and that I will never ever make you cry, never ever let tears in your eyes. I’ll fix your broken heart, I’ll make it beat again, I’ll never let you down, cos you know you can depend on me. Trust me, my baby angel, we’ll always be this way. And I will let our love take us over every single day. Every single day starting the day you are in my arms, till forever and ever. I will hold you tight in my arms, feel the warmth of your skin against mine, let it take over us both. Let it take over. Let is consume us forever.
